I was reading some articles I wrote back in highschool and college. I can’t believe it’s been so long since I actually sat down and wrote something down. I miss it. Sometimes, I remember telling myself during these past of couple of years that I will give time to writing. But life got so busy, I never did get into it. I still write sometimes, in my blog, once in a while, but nothing that really mattered.
When did I stop writing? When someone asks me if I still write, I always tell them that I do. Somehow, I could not bring myself to tell them the truth because I myself, haven’t been honest to myself. I knew exactly when I stopped. That is why there is a manuscript that I’ve been staring at and trying to finish for more than ten years now. No matter how much my bestfriend prompts me to finish the story, somehow, I couldn’t. In my head, I know the exactly how the story goes but I couldn’t put it into words anymore.
I have just resigned from my work in the call center industry. And I intend to take a break for a while. It’s not going to be easy since there will be bills to pay. This time, I will really try and focus. I need to think back and reassess my life. Maybe a little soul searching can help bring me out of my stupor. I need to remember how it felt like to write something down. I miss that feeling of fulfillment.